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[15 Sep 2003|06:56pm]
Hey everyone!
I have a new journal...If you love me enough, please go add me and I'll add you back. If you dont love me...well, thats too bad, I guess.
I will no longer be updating this journal, my journal from now on is in_the_shade
Love y'all!
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[14 Sep 2003|12:23pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Dammit, I fucking hate life. The AFI show is sold out. I can't beleive it. I FINALLY get a chance to see one of my favorite bands live, and now I cant. If my goddam parents havent taken so friggen long to say I could go, maybe I'd be seeing them. It's so frustrating that they are going to be here, but I cant see them.

My parents always do this to me. First Warped Tour, now this.

I never have anything to be happy about, I'm never excited or happy. Then AFI comes here, and I get all excited that I can go, and I'm actually happy for once. Which makes it even worse that now I haveta miss them.

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We aint got no place to go, so let's go to the punk rock show... [13 Sep 2003|11:04am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

My parents said yes! I'm going to see AFI on October 19th! I am going to SEE AFI! LIVE! OMG! I'm so excited! I can't breathe. Okay... *inhail* *exhail*
Right...So my dad tells me that I get to go, but I haveta bring a cell and call them often, I have to get my own food and drinks (duh! he thinks I dont know about date rape drugs. im not an idiot.), and I cant go backstage (like I would get to anyway?). Those rules should be easy enough to follow.
I am so not gonna sleep at all until after the concert.
I'm going with Manny, and maybe Nikki. I can't get through to Manny on the phone though...i just hope I can get tickets before they sell out.

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Im not, not sure, not too sure how it feels... [11 Sep 2003|07:42pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Wow. I was so spazzy last night. I had like, a mental break down and started crying all over the place.

Right...I just read my last entry, and I have come to a conclusion: I think too much. I over-analyse. Yup. So Ive decided that I'm gonna stop that. GC is still my favorite band...noone ever said you can only have one favorite, right? So Silverchair, GC, AFI, and Rancid are all my fave bands.

Im getting a new journal soon...the name evil_riot_queen is starting to piss me off, its so cliche. So I'll be getting the new one soon.

That's about it...I haveta go to school opening mass tomorrow. ugh.

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Take the world apon your shoulders... [10 Sep 2003|09:16pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I'm becoming more Silverchair obsessive.
Dont worry, I'm not over my GC obsession or anything, I still love them to death, but lately I've been more able to listen to other bands. So yeah...now I'm GC, Silverchair, Rancid and AFI obsessive. I have too much time on my hands.

I feel like crap.

I'm still trying to get my 'rents to let me go to AFI...I'll just DIE if they dont let me.

I feel wierd right now...Ive been obsessed with GC for years...I feel like Im losing interest in them...i dont want to, I still love them...I just dont know what Im feeling right now. They;re still one of my favorites, but Im not sure that they are my absolute favorite...Its hard to say that...Because I feel like Im betraying someone or something... I dunno. I think I just need to sleep, my head's starting to hurt.

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If only I could be as cool as you... [09 Sep 2003|06:31pm]
[ mood | excited ]

HOLY FREAKIN HELL! AFI is coming here! HERE! AFI! OMG! I haveta convince my parents to let me go...Manny's parents already said she could go. I wish my parents would let me go as easily as her 'rents do. AAAAAARG! But I'll get them to let me go...they kept me from Warped, and Im not gonna let them do something like that to me again.

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Nothing from nowhere I'm noone at all... [05 Sep 2003|08:11pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Im pissed beyong belief right now. So I was talking to that so-hot-it-makes-me-sick guy, and it turns out he's going out with his girlfriend again. They broke up for a while over the summer (I asked why, and he just said "Because I'm retarded"), but now they're together again. ugh!!!!!

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Part of the teenage angst brigade... [04 Sep 2003|07:05pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Is it just me, or did they change LiveJournal? The layout's different.

Anyways, moving on...

Right, so this guy in my class, Im still not gonna name, is SO SEXY. For real. He's so hot it makes me wanna puke. And I have to deal with that for 6 hours everyday, for the rest of the year! He'll never like me. He probably notices me, because I'm hard not to motice, but he'd never go for me.

Im still all depressed. At home, everything is making me cry. Not at school, because I never let them see me cry. But at home, I just completely lose it. Today, I flicked to MuchMusic, and "Youth of the Nation" by P.O.D was playing, and I started bawling, for no reason at all.

I didnt sleep again last night...Im so mentally tired, its not even funny.

I'm thinking of making my journal friends only, just because school has started again...Just in case someone I know comes across it. I'd be so embarrassed. I know it's paranoid, but still. People laugh at me enough without reading all this. If you're on my friends list, dont worry, I wont take you off. I just have to find someone who will make me a pretty Friends Only banner.

Alright, thats about it.

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Destination Unknown... [03 Sep 2003|09:31pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Right, so today was the second day.

We got our options...I'm in art and french, which is okay, I guess. Atleast I'm not in world geography or leadership or extra gym.

It was actually pretty uneventful. I was just alone, and I just did what I had to do to get through the day. I dont know how long I can do that, though...I just felt so empty. My so-called friend Anoushka is still acting like I dont exist...she's not mad at me, but she just picks the "popular kids" over me, even though they dont like her.

Yeah...so, I have CTS tomorrow, so I get to listen to music on the bus. Im sitting alone, thats okay...I'll have all my boys (all of GC, Rancid, AFI and more) with me:)

There's this guy in my class, who will remain unnamed, who is SO HOT! I mean hoooot. He has the most gorgeous eyes (well, not THE most georgeous, that'd be Billy), and this great smile. He's so funny. Too bad I'm ugly and everyone hates me. He probably doesnt even notice I exist.

All this shit, added to the fact that I'm not sleeping. I literally think im an insomniac. I can't sleep for more that half an hour at a time, and thats only every once in a while. So every night, I sleep a grand total of about 2 hours. And It just makes me even more tired of life. I mean, how I can I run on that?

This is all wearing me down, and I've only been back to school for two days. How the hell am I going to make it through the whole year?

God, I hate life.

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Under the red hot moon... [03 Sep 2003|08:36pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Self-survey I stole from KimmieCollapse )

Im boooooored.

Start screamin'

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